I am convinced that man is a ch!@#$##$4. And I don't know why you're still with him. And I feel helpless because there's little I can do here. But it hurts me to see you go through this. Without respite. How long? And it doesn't seem like it's going to get better.
It bothers me to see you have to endure things we never knew existed while we were growing up. It's a different life you're living now, and it's not a happy one at all. You're too young to have your aspirations snatched away so early. You're too bright to live this life of drudgery. You're too nice and too damn stupid to put up with it.
He has already proved himself to be a spineless d!@# beyond doubt. What else do want? Have a kid? So it can bind you down permanently? And have these stupid visions that it'll change things? Take it from me , it won't. He's an asshole. and i'm sorry i never told you that before, when it *might* have helped. For that, I cannot forgive myself.
Please, get out if it. To HELL with everyone else.