Dear Ex..
Because I can never tell you all this to your face. And even if I did, I doubt you'd understand.
Do you ever think of me? At all? I have supposedly moved on too, but you're always on my mind. I am guilty of all those silly things estranged lovers do. I e-stalk you. I run searches of your name everyday, and go on read and devour everything that comes up against it. Searching for clues in there. Reveling in some news that I saw coming. Taking pride in the places you're going. I spend time thinking about you, about how things were, how things could have been..how they will be... And of course, I compare what I have now with what we had then. Will we ever cross paths again? I'll be honest, a small part of me has not entirely given up on the idea. The decision to move so far away, to distance myself from you was entirely mine. Of course it was great while it lasted. We had our ups and downs, our highs and lows, and finally it was time to split ways. Still, every once a while, I can't help lose myself to the nostalgia of the past, the excitement, the new-nesss of our relationship, the fun in the discoveries, the fun in the "firsts". It was all so heady. The very mention of your name still makes my face light up. The other day I happened to be near the convention center, and guess what? Apparently it was the a.t.c.d. meeting 2008! I had no clue! It was our meeting! Remember? So I peeked in from outside, and caught a glimpse of what looked like you, in green. Green always brought out the best in you. It was a full auditorium, and a talk was in progress. But I couldn't tear myself away. I hung around, outside, listening intently. Staring at you, in spite of myself. Until L pulled me away. "You've moved on!" she chided me, as she saw that look in my eyes. I loitered around some more, posters with your name on them catching my eye automatically. Sigh. You haven't changed that much. But even I can now see you in a different light. It's amazing how a little distance puts so much perspective.
This is not a misery-laden i-miss-you sob story. It's more of a i-think-of-you-fondly-and-well-i-still-am-curious-about-you confession. Ex of course, refers to the little obscure parasite I studied for five years in grad school, before I made the move to the big bad world of mice and men. Sigh.
Hehehehe. Loved it :)
Made my day as I am stuck in the bleedy lab late once again :(
Sakshi said...
11:35 PM, January 11, 2008
sakshi,
knew you'd appreciate it. :p
sympathies for your friday night obligation. :p
The_Girl_From_Ipanema said...
11:38 PM, January 11, 2008
hmph!
morning morning I am reading and thinking 'where is this going' only to end up at parasite love.
double hmph!!!!
neihal said...
12:18 AM, January 12, 2008
Aww, that is so touching!!
I'm sure if your ex googles up your name someday - daaktarni lajjo sahiba, and comes to your blog, even he will be touched! :P
Crime Master said...
12:55 AM, January 12, 2008
i've nevah evah heard somebody call their love a parasite,, imagine, ooh! my sweetheart, my parasite!!!! (although you can call an ex that :P)
ferret said...
1:08 AM, January 12, 2008
Nicely written...
Born a Libran said...
2:39 AM, January 12, 2008
Neihal,
khi khi khi khi. :p
crime master,
lol! :)
ferret,
hahahaha! good one!
libran,
direct dil se likhela hai bhai.
The_Girl_From_Ipanema said...
6:28 AM, January 12, 2008
:D cool. loved this. if only that little glob of living matter knew it is being featured on your blog in a special dedicated post :)
to your 'ex' : you lucky, lucky insect! :P
[alrite, i know this ain't perhaps taxonomically correct, (i'm a biology student too), but somehow, the phrase "you lucky, lucky nematode/helminth !" doesn't seem to create that much impact. :D]
Sanyukta said...
8:59 AM, January 12, 2008
Take care that your "current" does not read this rather affectionate post about your "ex". He will turn green (can he?) with envy!
sd said...
11:56 AM, January 12, 2008
Hehhehee. Read this again and then saw your SOTD is green eyes.
Gave a whole new meaning to this fascination you have with green :)
Sakshi said...
4:36 PM, January 12, 2008
@ sanyukta,
hehe! little glob indeed. :) your comment in my gmail box is attracting all kinds of creepy crawly ads now! :)
sd,
HA HA HA! Indeed, my current can turn green and it would not be a good thing, at all! I must be careful. :)
Sakshi,
LOL! That's hilarious! i didn't catch that myself! must change sotd soon! :)
The_Girl_From_Ipanema said...
10:21 PM, January 12, 2008
Awwww!! and what an anti climax
La vida Loca said...
1:56 AM, January 14, 2008
WTF? nice try though :)
Janefield said...
3:31 PM, January 14, 2008
LOL!!!
Shripriya said...
12:24 AM, January 15, 2008
hehee everyone does that eh? esp the estalking bit
Cynic in Wonderland said...
12:51 AM, January 15, 2008
Got here through Desipundit.
Been through all this. Could I recommend a song that's guaranteed to have you misty eyed : 'Did she mention my name?', by Gordon Lightfoot. Get it somehow, listen to it.
Sudarshan said...
1:29 AM, January 15, 2008
lovely writing!
- chandni
http://chandni.wordpress.com
Anonymous said...
1:36 AM, January 15, 2008
Awesome , as always !
Rads said...
4:07 AM, January 15, 2008
vida loca, janefield, shripriya,
*smiles coyly*
hi cynic in wonderland!
hehehe! yea yea, the e-stalking bit is common. ;)
hello sudarshan,
will check out the song. thanks.
why do i get the feeling you didn't read through the end of the post? ;)
chandni, rads,
thanks girls :)
The_Girl_From_Ipanema said...
8:04 AM, January 15, 2008
Eeeyuck,
Being a veggie myself, and an accountant/MBA type at that too, I found this post disgusting.
Just kidding, loved the way you brought out the nuances in your relationship with your Ex, and loved the way you ended the post.
Cheers........Jam
Jam said...
11:08 PM, January 15, 2008
hi jam!
hehehe. :) if it helps, i'm a veggie too.
The_Girl_From_Ipanema said...
9:22 AM, January 16, 2008
Gaaaah, ok, I'll post comment. I've been randomly going through your blog for a while now and I can't help at this one - even if it was from long ago (relatively) - it's brilliant!
Didelphinus said...
4:41 PM, October 02, 2008