Monday, January 07, 2008

Games you play

So you play the avoid game for a while, it works. Then you play hide and seek. Then you play silly excuses game. More excuses materialize that even look authentic (you're getting better at it). God knows you have your reasons. Then you play the i-can-fool-myself-and-others game. You get really good at it. Then you are in a hazy zone because even you don't know any more what it is that you want. All you can sense is resistance, the same old comfort in comfort-zone syndrome. You easily convince yourself to see what you want to see. It's the oldest trick in the book. More deception, more inertia. Nothing inspires you to zap out of it. Life goes on.

Then something happens, enough to make you stop and consider. Wonder where you're going with all of this. Whether you're being fair to yourself, and to others involved. But most of all whether you're being true to yourself. You sit yourself down. Have a real serious one-to-one with yourself. You still don't know what it is that you want. But that's okay. Nobody ever has all the answers. It's important to be true to yourself though. You can keep running, you can find more places to hide. Nothing comes easy. Nothing comes risk-free. There are no guarantees..except that life will go on.

9 comments:

async said...

Oh lord!! This is so true.
What is one to do when he/she is tired of even running away? When there is absolutely no escape left?
Fairly or unfairly.....life will go on.It's such a bitch.

Sakshi said...
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Janefield said...

very nice and very true also.

yes life will pass by and in fact if you sit around on your fat ass and do nothing about it, life will not just pass you by, but even make an obscene gesture at you as it goes.

so wake up and show it the finger right back!!!

Sakshi said...

Sigh.. I can not make trite comments or say funny things when you make such profound statements.
Pah! Even in my drunken haze I can't mock :(
PS- What are you hiding from? Pliss to inform!

Arpz said...

//There are no guarantees..except that life will go on.

huh? life will go on is a guarantee? Wow!

The_Girl_From_Ipanema said...

async,
bitch it is. :/

janefield,
sigh. can you see what I see?

sakshi,
am busy lol-ing at how your earlier comment made no sense at all. :D. and then you actually come back and try to make amends! :)

arpz,
ah well. come back and check tomorrow. :)

Sakshi said...

@TGFI - Wot to do? Ekdum khali time hai. So trying to spam everywhere :P

Anonymous said...

This is so very true. I feel someone has just put what ever is happening in my life right now.

The_Girl_From_Ipanema said...

sakshi,
:)

anony,
i guess i'm not alone...:/
hope things resolve for you