I feel a panic attack coming. I need to relax. Get a grip, gain some perspective.
Life is such a bitch. And I only make it more complicated for myself. Why?
There was a going away party for a coworker last night. I had a nice time after ages..mindless fun, silly geeky jokes, eating out, drinking, never ending philosophical discussions...
I had to keep flitting around small groups of people every time the discussion turned to sports at any group. At one point, I was left with nowhere to go. So I tried beer. And figured it was okay. I think there is no hope left for me now.
What I totally loathe about going out with this group is the number of smokers who don't really care about smoking into your face. (Yeah that whole motion you do of looking up and exhaling is not very effective). And then my coat and jeans stink of smoke. Chih! And my throat is all scratchy and irritated. AArghh.
Having lived near the airport in bombay, I went to the airport often to see/receive people etc. I always watched those people who hold up placards with names on them for passengers arriving, and for the longest time, wanted to be able to do the same. (Ya, to stand and hold a placard!). Then I moved up and realized how cool it would be to at the other end of it, having a placard held up with your name on it. I have not had the pleasure of either, and they remain high on my list of things to get done...
Ok now i will stop avoiding work. now.