Tuesday, April 29, 2008
I've got to stop this
I know i am overdoing it, but I can't help myself. It's a normal urge, but its unhealthy when indulged in so much. I am beginning to worry if there is a deeper reason for it all: some kind of depression or insecurity. May be its because I've been denying myself cheese and fries and chocolate and all those bad foods I love. May be I should just go get a work out more often. Ever since I went and bought myself that.. er.. contraption.. I was at it every other day. Now I find myself doing it at least once a day. Some days it makes me happy, other days it depresses me. It always works better with clothes off, though. When it fails to make me happy, sometimes I blame the contraption. Which is even worse. Every time I start, I tell myself I must stop it. But its right there, so easy to do, the idleness of the exercise making it that much more easy to give in to. After all what's a single girl to do? I tell myself that its a phase. There is no point fighting it. This too shall pass. Very soon I shall overcome this obsession of checking my weight daily.