Its all too familiar. To want, to get, to not want, to be scared, to want to run. I am not sure what it will take to get out of the safety of this comfort zone. It all seems too demanding and not inspiring enough. It shouldn't seem like a chore, like a task waiting to be struck off a to-do list, right? Most times, thats what it seems like to me.
And so I run around in recursively twisted logic. It's getting tiresome.