I think I've made my peace with whatever was weighing down on me..sort of proud of myself for such a quick comeback. Yay!
There will always be some amount of prevailing blues/nostalgia/missing someone who had gotten to be a very integral part of my life: of subway rides, city-exploring, visits and day-to-day life-events. But such is life: and that seems acceptable to me, now.
I am still torn between understanding how much "effort" one must put in a long distance relationship, and how much should be just left alone, to take whichever course it takes.
Was reminded by different people in different contexts that I have been admired by them for my foresight and maturity. Lapped up all of that and appreciate the votes of confidence. :)
Some good summer days have finally shown up! Am enjoying walking about the city, figuring out the subways and streets.