Been a really crappy week- well, we're just mid-week at this point, so I am hoping the worst is past and things get better from here on.
I don't know where I stand work-wise: things are moving slowly: sometimes I stress about the fact that I'm not stressed enough at work! I know, thats ridiculous, thankfully I'm quick to realise that and move on. I guess the reason for these passing thoughts is those afternoons of down-time, when I have nothing to do besides reading, and I start getting restless. I have decided to do what always worked for me in the past: make my daily to-do list, and once i have done everything on it, be satisfied and call it a day.
The hardest question to answer about your science: so why is your method/work better than whatever is already out there? (and there's a lot!). I am new to this, since my ph.d. was actually in a niche area- very few people cared about it and hence worked on it. Human cancer is a whole different story. That's the question that brings me down, until I can find a convincing enough answer for it.
I was thinking back to what was possibly the worst phase in my life: my post-doc days in Philly win hands down. Especially the time when things were beginning to unfold, when I was beginning to realize what a mess I was in, and how I should've heeded to instinct earlier. I am glad I left when I did, but it has definitely taken its toll on my confidence, enthusiasm for science, academia, and general direction in life. I doubt my expectations of myself now, and that is not easy to reconcile with. I am afraid I am becoming just another bitter post doc.
On the other hand, I am proud of myself for getting through all of that and for getting out of it. I am glad for all the friends and support network I had around me back then.
Anyways, a migraine induced afternoon nap always inspires such sad ass posts. Tomorrow is a new day, and things will be infinitely better once I get some sleep and lose the headache.
I really shouldn't be watching Rakhi ka Swayamvar, but ...somebody..staaaap me!
If I thought being vulnerable was difficult, its even harder to deal with another person's vulnerabilities. I hope that I do a good job of dealing with them.
My favourite two cliched lines:"This too shall pass" and "All for the best"..I continue to believe in them with unwavering faith :)
So is twitter the lazy blogger's answer? I am seeing that a lot of bloggers I enjoyed reading don't blog any more, but have turned to twitter to post one-line summaries of what could've been at least para-long posts. Does this mean that bloggers don't really like to write, just need a platform to voice their opinion? Hmm?
So I am actually considering getting a twitter account, just to follow all you lazy bums that won't write decent posts on your blogs anymore. Pah.
There was a time I used to abhor the idea of facebook: mostly the idea of people throwing inanimate and animate objects at each other etc. I also abhorred orkut before that. I got on the both the bandwagons, managed to stay out of the cow-throwing activities and enjoy them for being a great medium to rediscover old friends and keep in touch. And network. I am now slowly trying to convince my sister to get on FB. If and when she eventually does, I'll consider it a personal victory. :)
Over and out.