Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Bringing back W O M M

Whats On My Mind- A great way to dump the distractions and focus on work.

1. My FIL with dementia- is becoming really difficult to care for. He is at the stage where he requires some amount of assistance with everyday living, but resents it. We are paying dearly for a 24h caregiver, compromising on our privacy, etc. only to have my FIL be nasty and snappy with him. Its very frustrating. I realise where my FIL's resentment is coming from but it is very hard to deal with. And the thought that there is no end to this is even more depressing.

2. I need a day of focus to get the last bit done on my manuscript. It helps to read all my old posts where I dragged my feet, felt miserable and kept getting stuck in those vicious cycles. Got to avoid that rut now. Once I get the paper done, there is so much more to do.

3. Need to set hourly goals and work in 20 min bursts.

Over and out.

Monday, September 29, 2014

Stay At Home Person

So the job in B1 did not work out. I think it was a blessing in disguise, given that I actually found myself often questioning the move to B1. It has gotten harder to live in, filthier, and a lot more chaotic than I remember it.

And the biggest draw for me to move to B1- the presence of a huge network of close friends- didn't really get exploited because of the crazy traffic. I had a close friend in the building right next to my workplace, and I never visited her , because, I was afraid I wouldn't get an auto back home if I did that post work. Hah!

Anyhow, I am back to B2. Several kilos heavier after eating all the vada pavs and other assorted junk food that I loved, with a pinched nerve in my back thanks to the 9 hour  desk job, 1 hour on the blessed WEH (Western Express Highway) and auto drivers that are always in a hurry and do not care if they are dislocating your vertebra, one by one.

For the most part, I don't feel bad about this. Like a friend helped me rationalize- I got to explore this option- of working in B2, and finding it less than optimum. Except that I miss the job and I don't quite enjoy the unemployed status.

I got to do some soul searching, and have chalked up following life improvement goals while I hunt for a job. So I shouldn't complain. Below they are in order of priority

1) Finish post doc paper
2)  Gym + learn driving + get back to cooking
3) Find a job
4) Renew friendships/networks in B1.

So yeah. All the best to me.

And I will leave with a picture of the day- this really is an awesome photo - love it!